Still a badass, even in all this. I feel you and I’m sending a firestorm of hugs. And this might not help at all, but you look absolutely yummy with a lil thickness on ya 💋
Eddy you don’t know how excited I was to see you pop up in my inbox. It’s like reconnecting with a friend you haven’t seen in years only for that meeting to feel like no time has passed. Your writing is absolutely brilliant and I’ve missed it so. I’m so sorry you’re going through the shittiest of shit right now. I’m sending you a big virtual hug!
Seriously though when you said “self harm is also neglect. it’s abandoning the practices that keep you healthy and sane and stable. it’s binge eating to fill a void that food can’t fill. it’s smoking yourself numb every single day. it’s isolation. it’s letting yourself disappear.” That shit rocked me to my core because that’s me right now. I’ve used motherhood as an excuse to abandon myself and you just put to words what I’ve been feeling deep down and haven’t quite been able to accept.
Please please never let your fire for creating go out. You don’t just have the light in you babe you ARE the light. And it shines so fucking bright when you give yourself permission to let the world see it.
Still a badass, even in all this. I feel you and I’m sending a firestorm of hugs. And this might not help at all, but you look absolutely yummy with a lil thickness on ya 💋
Eddy you don’t know how excited I was to see you pop up in my inbox. It’s like reconnecting with a friend you haven’t seen in years only for that meeting to feel like no time has passed. Your writing is absolutely brilliant and I’ve missed it so. I’m so sorry you’re going through the shittiest of shit right now. I’m sending you a big virtual hug!
Seriously though when you said “self harm is also neglect. it’s abandoning the practices that keep you healthy and sane and stable. it’s binge eating to fill a void that food can’t fill. it’s smoking yourself numb every single day. it’s isolation. it’s letting yourself disappear.” That shit rocked me to my core because that’s me right now. I’ve used motherhood as an excuse to abandon myself and you just put to words what I’ve been feeling deep down and haven’t quite been able to accept.
Please please never let your fire for creating go out. You don’t just have the light in you babe you ARE the light. And it shines so fucking bright when you give yourself permission to let the world see it.
My initial thought was also: why are you not going home? And you found the answer as well.
“apparently rock bottom has a basement, and that basement is furnished with a broken television.”
You’re still funny AF tho
I was wondering where you were. And now reading this, 3 days before coming to the US for the first time in 20 years.
I am sorry 2025 has brought nothing but shit into your life. I am continuing reading now and sending you a big hug
i’m really proud of you friend 🫶💚✨
thank you <3 :)
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